The day before

I turn 30 I am carrying so much irritation. So, in an attempt to vent it out, here goes!

I’ve been talking to this guy from OKC, he seems alright, though he’s not my type at all. Sometimes you gotta try something else though. Especially after I told him I am not traveling to his city (whatever happened to a guy coming your way on a first date) because I am tired of traveling for bad dates, and he was a good sport about it. And then I made the mistake of giving him my number. He has been texting me 15 times a day, and today called me when I did not respond. 1; more than 2 texts a day is a turn off for me. 2; I do not do phonecalls. After me not answering, he sent me another message asking when is a good time to call me. By now I am completely turned off and contemplating blocking him. I do not want to have to explain why I don’t want to talk to the phone and get into that conversation. I’ve already lost interest and don’t want to talk about ‘what my other hobbies are.’ Lesson learned. No number giving. Would I be a total bitch if I blocked him off and online?

Then someone (I can’t call him boyfriend) that I took a long time getting over got back in touch with me. He had disappeared into thin air, and 18 months later, here he is. Me being in a happy place didn’t care so much for his comeback. I wasn’t gonna get sucked back in time. There was too much of a cultural difference (He’s in India, an awful story I’ll have to tell you later) and we couldn’t even start looking at options. So we casually exchange messages every now and then about random things. Then one day he calls. Those phonecalls are super expensive, especially for him, so he keeps it short and before hanging up, apologizes heartfelt for disappearing and how he’s hurt me. To my surprise,  (while I accept the apology) I also realize I didn’t need it. Yay. But then somehow he must think he’s in the clear again. Every time we message, he wants to manoeuvre the conversation back to where we left off 2 years again. I didn’t respond to it for a while, and let it go, but then became increasingly irritated. The reason he would call or text at 4am his time is no other than any other guy would; a bootycall. Then last night the same conversation happened and he tried to call me to talk about it. I didn’t answer, he got mad and I ended straight up telling him I’m no slut that is readily available for what he is missing out on back there. Ugh. There is so much more to this story, but it just added to the list of boiling frustrations yesterday!

Lastly, my family is irritating the crap out of me. Here, it is quite common that if someone is turning 30, something is organised for them as it’s quite a big deal. Since I have no partner it would be on my family. I have a brother, sister in law and a sister, and neither of them, nor my parents are feeling compelled. Instead, I am receiving 8 messages between them of when they should be coming over. They know I never celebrate my birthday, and the least I want to do for this one is sit in a circle and drink tea, which is what will happen. Can they not just be a little spontaneous? More over; I am always there for their birthdays, but once again, my brother has cancelled. Third year in a row.

I probably sound petty and am overreacting, but I feel like it’s just adding up. And I a finish typing up, this guy just called me again. Argh!